Of all people, -.-.- made a remark that put my insides on fire. It was the moment that I felt closest ever to diving up and seeing the surface from the other side. I could have taken the other road, could have answered yes, could have searched for his help. Although, it was just a remark, or was it? Maybe he's the likeliest person. He's a twin of my first boyfriend in an eerie way. He's - precious in a way that only a friend's boyfriend can be, a friend's who is so like myself that it's eerie, too.